The End of an Era

Well, thats it, i write this as a free man for only the second time in my life, but for the first time not knowing if the change is permanent. Last exam of the year, and indeed the last of college was today, it sounds daft but it symbolises so much more than just a finished set of exams.

It feels like almost a rite of passage...now that may sound daft to some people and even as i write this it doesnt exactly sound normal, but its how i feel at the moment, and how im sure alot of year 13's feel alongside me. To have finished the longest 8 weeks, the hardest two years, and the neverending 13 years of our lives has been a journey im sure nobody will forget. except that for the most part this feels so much more...when our age group finished year 11, the switch from school to college was big, but mostly expected, not many people dropped at the end of the first stage...this time however things are more wideranging.

Its very possible to consider people leaving education for good, for some its time out and space for a gap year (some to do charity work abroad, some for extra money, and some just to get a perspective on life, and how fast its been moving) while some will jump the second hurdle, and reach the final, 3+ year stretch that is university. and while some are openly expecting to get there, some may already have...there are those that may not be so sure, if at all, that these exam results will carry enough weight to get their chosen place...and i openly admit that is the category i fall into.

It struck me today harder than before, when i heard the words "right your done, you can go now" i took that meaning as more than just finishing an exam, it highlighted the fact that we were finished for good, but it also pointed out the glaring fact that there were no second chances from here, if the results dont come through, thats it, no jumping hurdles or waiting to jump, more of a fall, and a long one at that.

So i sit here tonight, after spending the day out after the exam...happy but very apprehensive, as im sure alot of people are feeling alongside me. Its true that nothing can be changed, whats done is done, but even still, worry is mixed with sheer joy. the end of an era, and for once its very apparent, easy to feel, easier to embrace.

The Ramblings Begin...

Well, its taken a long time but ive finally decided to run a blog, i tried an audio diary a while back and never got around to publishing it/actually doing most of it. at least now i get an excuse.

Not sure what to expect with this to be honest, i could post hundereds, or post three and give up, all i know is ill at least try to keep it up to date with opinions and the like, along with news from the various worlds i keep an eye on, poker and formula one just to name a few

To subscribe to this would be to get a perspective on the world you may not have realised, either that or gives you another excuse to laugh at teenagers who think their opinions matter, either way my view count goes up so ill leave it to you :)

Apart from that, ill make my updates as frequently as i feel, if its worth putting then i will, apart from that, have fun :D